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September 1, 2004

It's A Good Life

First day of September. This month, I turn 29. Czarina turns 4. Time- doing it's usual amount of flying and freaking me out.

This is the busiest I think I've ever been. Here's the rundown. I wake up around 7ish, get Czarina to school by 8:30. Back home with HeroBoy to make sure house/laundry is all picked up (can't have our babysitter see the mess!). Oh, and squeeze in a trip to the gym for an hour, plus grocery shopping and errand running, whatever needs doing that day. All by 11:30 - in order to pick Czarina up from school. Get kids back home and fed lunch. Shower and get ready for work, take out something for dinner (love that crockpot) put the kids down for a nap at 2, as the babysitter is walking in the door. I am at work by 2:30, and finally make it home again by 11:30 that night. In bed by 12:30ish.

I sleep like the dead.

I know I can do all this, it's an artful juggling that is only possible under extreme necessity. But, I'll admit, I'm tired. And a little nervous about burning out. I realized this year, that in order to do all the things I need to do, I have to take care of myself. To have the level of energy I need just to chase after the kids, let alone all the other stuff, I have to invest in myself even when it's not convenient. So, that hour at the gym- it's vital. I need it, so I give it to myself. It makes all the difference in the world. The other thing, is this blog. It's the luxury item I'd take on Survivor. It's my big white canvas that holds the color of my life. I can create, lament, joke, whine, and escape here. I know it's stupid sometimes and I don't know who reads and who doesn't but I try not to care about that. All I'm doing here is taking care of myself, and that's my guilty pleasure.

People blog for a lot of reasons. I think though, there is an underlying need in most of us that causes us to use this medium-- like all artforms. It's expression, whether it's political, artistic, religious, musical. A place to say, you know what? I do a lot of things- I am a lot of things for a lot of people. But here, I'm just me.

I've let a lot of things go, many interests have fallen by the wayside for now. Genealogy, sewing, scrapbooking, all victims of my time crunch. What's left is writing and sweating. Sometimes at the same time. I read on my lunch break and coffee break, so that's just hanging in by a thread. But my life has been condensed and concentrated. But in a way, I guess you could say it's been focused, which is not a bad thing.

You know what? I'm happy.

It's a good life. Blog on.

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